I created you in the dead of night
When the rain tapped hard on the sill
And the winds creaked the old hinges.
From an ominous birth
You brought me peace,
As I had tossed and turned;
Unable to relieve myself of nightmares.
But I have had enough of you now.
You may term it as betrayal; as,
After having shared endless nights together
I seem to be no longer interested in you.
But I fought, to make you better, and the best
Withstanding many criticisms and comparisons
‘Selling’ myself to you as I vent out depressions.
But, the end had to arrive someday,
And it has now, maybe
This is your end, the end
This is my last post here. I may delete my beloved Blog, or it may be here if I can’t gather enough strength to do so, but this is my last post here. I have spent many wonderful moments here, and I had loved the space to the extent, that I felt I was leaving someone behind when I last went out of station. But some reasons, valid to me, have left me with doubts about my reason to blog. My last post had triggered people to think that I was “selling” [precisely the term used] myself, my stories in order to gain sympathy and I was being too individualistic and thinking only about myself, leading me to ponder over my intentions. If venting out my frustrations can be termed thus, then maybe my other posts were so too, as I had parts of only me shattered all over here. Reading your comments on my last post I had really wondered about how friends could really make a difference and I was really cheerful, but this sudden respected opinion has left me in fits of doubt and depression, triggering me to take this decision. I wondered if this was the ultimate thing that people has construed about me all through these days. I am really very sad to leave my friends out here, with whom I have really been very close over the last few months, but I am really very sorry, I can’t go on like this. I don’t know if I will ever be back here, but I have indeed lost my initial attachment here.
So, everybody out here Have a very happy and safe Puja and enjoy. Bbye.